my journey part 2

      Ok so the last post was a background on my health now i will go in depth about each battle and what I am doing to cope.


    So we need to start back in April of 2015 I was having really bad stomach pains and throwing up everything I ate. So my husband, brother and I had gone out for the day and left the baby with my mom. So they brought me to the hospital and waited while they did testing. They did a cat scan, MRI and lots of blood work. Doctors come back in and say OK so we have found that you have diabetes that came from pancreatitis. WHAT!!!!!!! This is my first reaction. So then I ask what does that mean. They tell me that I will be dealing with this for the rest of my life. In easy terms it means my pancreas does not work at the same level all the time. It also means that it can cause me to have severe stomach pains and other health issues.
   The diabetes is a consant struggle everyday. Even though I did change my diet and do take my medicine as I am told too. Even with all these changes I still will not be able to get my diabetes fully under control until we get the pancreatitis figured out. Well we have been trying to get a handle on it for a year and it has been difficult. I did change my diet in a huge way and started eating better and more often. I still have a hard time everyday with my sugar and let me tell you some days I just want to say forget it and just eat what I feel like. I then remind myself that if I want to do that I can but then I will have to be the one who has to deal with the consequences that come with my descion to go away from what I know I am aloud to have. I think everyone has those moments when they just want to give up which is OK it is in out nature. The important part is to make sure that once you have that moment you realize that now you do to get on with life and decide if you are going to just sit by and let life go by you. I choose option two which is realize that getting upset and depressed about it isn't going to change what I am going through or what I have. SO I decided to instead of just sitting by and taking the doctors word for everything I do my research when they tell me what is going on and tell them the things I have found. This works for us and we then talk about my options and decide together where we are going from there.
  I know I still have a long journey to go from here but I will be fighting everyday to get better and stay alive and well for my daughter. I have had a hard time deciding wether I want to tell people about everything. I wasn't sure if I wanted to talk about the cancer but I decided that keeping it in and worring about it all on my own is not helping. So i decided I am going to keep writing on my blog about how I am feeling to be able to see it and for others to see it too maybe it will help someone else.

  What else do I have you ask well we just found out I have celiac disease and also have pancreatic cancer. this is my way to tell how I am feeling and keeping everyone updated.

The past year

   OK so let me start off by saying this is a very personal post and I am not writing is for pity but I feel like I just want people to know what is going on in my life that is what this blog is for anyways.

    OK so  March 9th 2015 I had my daughter via c-section she was healthy and everything went fine. We went home started to adjust to life at home with a newborn early April I was having a lot of stomach pain and finally decided that I need to go to the ER on a Saturday night. Well we go they do tests and cat scans and when they come to tell me the results I would never had been able to prepare myself. The doctor comes in and says I have pancreatitis and diabetes. The pancreatitis caused the diabetes and they do not know how I got pancreatitis since I have never been a drinker. SO they tell us they are going to admit me and take out my gallbladder. SO they admit me take out the gallbladder and give me insulin to take at home. So I got home after a week I wish I could say that it was all good from there but the truth is since then I have been to the ER 18 times and admit 16 times either for pancreatitis or for blood sugar issues or both. I have changed my diet and take my meds but it did not seem to be getting better. So the doctor did some more blood test and cat scans and mri's and ercp. the results from these test are that I have celiac disease and pancreatic cancer.

  SO that last year has been tough with my health issues and is going to be even rougher this next year.
The things I do know are I have some great doctors on my team who are finding the best things to help me with these issues. I have a great family and support system to help me when I need it. Because I know I ma going to need help at some point especially having a 13 month old at home with me. I know god is my father and he has a plan we do not know what it is but we know it is his will and he will be there every step of the way. I also know I ma a fighter and this will not stop me I will fight until It is gone and I am better.

I will keep updating the blog and letting you know of what is going on.